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[sprinkletheif]

i haven't slept well in weeks, maybe even months at this point. i feel like my body has no regard for my brain and someone else is in control. i feel like i want to jump out of my skin, kinda like the feeling you get from withdrawal. i feel really strung out, tired, but i just.can't.sleep. my body is vehemently against me getting any rest as well as fine motor function and sitting still. twitch. twitch. jerk. jerk. heart palpitation. then nothing for a while, until i start to relax, then twitch. jerk. flail.

god this blows.