i'm chewing on glass.... and eating my fingers...

[sprinkletheif]

so i've had some things on my mind. some issues were brought to my attention over the past few months, slowly cumulating into an annoying goiter on my mind that i'm going to lance, then forget about.

myspace, ah yes, the place for friends. or the place for voyeuristic fucking social-leach housewives with nothing better to do. same goes for livejournal. no lives of their own to lead so they try to suck the marrow out of others from afar. cute. quickly tossing under the microscope any mistake or misstep i take or have taken like i give a fuck (well apparently i do for the purpose of this entry) and spreading it amongst the flock like a fucking weasel with AIDS. and i'm the one who never got past high school?

okay, i've made mistakes. okay, i've made a LOT of mistakes. okay, most of my life has been mistakes, but i've never once claimed to be righteous, i've never once claimed to be better than anyone. fuck, most of my mistakes are flapping across america in various magazines or websites as have been pointed out by my many "fans" who are so quick to scrutinize my pussy at any moment it's flashed. obsess much? maybe i should start selling passes? no wait, i'm out of that business now and i've moved on.

"WHAT? MOVED ON?! PEOPLE DO THAT?!" you might ask. well you see, to my understanding life works a little like this: you wake up, you live, you fuck up, you fall down, you get back up, dust off, probably fuck up again, try to hide how red your face is and continue the process until you get it right, if you ever do. yes, friends and voyeurs, perhaps we never do get it right.

right now though i'm feeling pretty good about the track i'm on. no drugs, very little alcohol, i don't even smoke for god's sake. i go to class, i go to work. i lay in the same bed with the same person and have for the past three years, i love my family and do my homework. yes world, i'm finally normal.

so if the rest of you assholes who happen by here to poke about looking for a shitstorm to stir about want to find out what's really been going on with me when your not too busy trying to figure out who's fetus is who's - do me a favor and come strait to me and stop spreading it around to everyone who talks to those who talk to me. my IM name hasn't changed since high school - it's still SLLMSPOOKY - my email is venusblue@razorblade-bubblegum.com. you will not get my phone number. ever. that's for people who actually matter.

and to those of you that want to continue to play around in this bullshit? well i only have one last immature gesture for you before i pour myself a nice stiff drink and sit down to my writing homework

Comments

[off.livejournal.com]

fuckin pailhead man
god i miss that shit
perfect theme song to this entry btw
dunno if it was intentional.

[limbik.livejournal.com]

I hate you. You're fucking gorgeous.

[tattoogoddess.livejournal.com]

you should post more photos-you look wonderful.

[matafleur.livejournal.com]

Aww... Wednesday Addams!

a very... furious... Wednesday.

friggin meat market.org shitbags!

[skwyrm.livejournal.com]

not only is the internet the perfect vehicle for retards to stir up drama and gossip, but it's also a great place to dig up dirt on anyone with a screen name.

apparently it's also a good place for bohabs to find attractive people and point out how aesthetically pleasing they find them. Myspace und LJ is full of desperate dweebs pumping loads in their hands sending messages to people who are WAAAAAY outta league.

and before this gets construed as a stab at "limbik", it isn't.

she is fucking gorgeous, and we all hate her for it. I'm totally on your side there...

but since we're bitching about internet douchebags here, I figure my contribution is semi-valid...

and what's up with losers who can't keep their women satisfied, so they go out and get knocked up by someone else? how pathetic is that? baby mama drama at it's worst! and I'M the one who grew up in and out of trailer parks. sheesh!

[greyyguy.livejournal.com]

Just ignore these morons. You are doing awesome, and are far past anything they are doing. All they have is the ability to look at the past and criticize, while you are moving forward and doing something.

Besides, you look that good even while pissed, so that has to be better then they are. And if you have fan sites for even your mistakes, how many of them can say they have any fan sites for even their sucesses?

[lucidrebellion.livejournal.com]

can you be my hero!??