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Jan. 10th, 2008 06:46 amOMG GET THESE FUCKING STAPLES OUT OF ME!!!!!!!!!
my cane still isn't here. i have a flimsy crappy one until it does get here.
yanno, i always joke around about being a cripple and whatnot, but now that i've had to walk with a "walking aid" i simply cannot believe how people behave. i realize seeing someone my age with a cane is a little offputting (especially since without makeup i look like i'm MAYBE 16), but the fact that i am young and gimping it up does not make me a faker. older people that have canes/walkers treat me like total crap in public. in the mall yesterday one closed a door on me while looking right at me.
then there's just regular people... wtf is wrong with people, seriously? we went to the grocery store and there was this lady pushing her cart not more than 4 feet behind me as i'm gimping along. she's doing the "omg hurry up" sigh while leaning most of her massive upper body on her cart. now, if it were a narrow isle i'd totally understand, but it was that huge wide open area by the registers before you check out, she could have very easily gone around me, but no - that involved altering her predetermined course of strait ahead. the same woman got in line behind us when there were a bunch of self check outs and actual cashiers open and did the "omg" sigh the whole time.
regular people don't seem to realize that cane = not so great at stopping fast. i still can't walk very fast or very well. so i'm walking along (in the same trip at the grocery store) and someone darts out from the oncoming side to grab something from a cooler i was walking by. normally i'd just stop short and make some asinine remark, but i can't really comfortably stop short yet. so i grab onto joey while he's stopping so i could use his momentum to stop - sending waves of pain through my body. i almost threw up it hurt so bad - the kind of pain where everything flashes white for a second. the person just goes on with their life, not really noticing that they'd just opened a cooler into two people's faces.
the grocery store has always been a battle for me. my anxiety erupts 10-fold in there and i don't know why. there and hot topic. i *always* start to freak at hot topic (odd because we went to both places yesterday...). i'm just amazed at how horrible people are to you in those places. i have to be up and walking a bit in order to recover so we just try to incorporate errands. i'm starting to think i should just go walk the track at the gym from now on.
my cane still isn't here. i have a flimsy crappy one until it does get here.
yanno, i always joke around about being a cripple and whatnot, but now that i've had to walk with a "walking aid" i simply cannot believe how people behave. i realize seeing someone my age with a cane is a little offputting (especially since without makeup i look like i'm MAYBE 16), but the fact that i am young and gimping it up does not make me a faker. older people that have canes/walkers treat me like total crap in public. in the mall yesterday one closed a door on me while looking right at me.
then there's just regular people... wtf is wrong with people, seriously? we went to the grocery store and there was this lady pushing her cart not more than 4 feet behind me as i'm gimping along. she's doing the "omg hurry up" sigh while leaning most of her massive upper body on her cart. now, if it were a narrow isle i'd totally understand, but it was that huge wide open area by the registers before you check out, she could have very easily gone around me, but no - that involved altering her predetermined course of strait ahead. the same woman got in line behind us when there were a bunch of self check outs and actual cashiers open and did the "omg" sigh the whole time.
regular people don't seem to realize that cane = not so great at stopping fast. i still can't walk very fast or very well. so i'm walking along (in the same trip at the grocery store) and someone darts out from the oncoming side to grab something from a cooler i was walking by. normally i'd just stop short and make some asinine remark, but i can't really comfortably stop short yet. so i grab onto joey while he's stopping so i could use his momentum to stop - sending waves of pain through my body. i almost threw up it hurt so bad - the kind of pain where everything flashes white for a second. the person just goes on with their life, not really noticing that they'd just opened a cooler into two people's faces.
the grocery store has always been a battle for me. my anxiety erupts 10-fold in there and i don't know why. there and hot topic. i *always* start to freak at hot topic (odd because we went to both places yesterday...). i'm just amazed at how horrible people are to you in those places. i have to be up and walking a bit in order to recover so we just try to incorporate errands. i'm starting to think i should just go walk the track at the gym from now on.