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i am so ready for this collar to come off.

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so i tracked down the email address of my old pain management doc that i'm not allowed to see anymore because i owe her practice money and emailed her the situation. i'm pretty sure i'm not allowed to see her until my balance is payed in full (i fucking love the american healthcare system, inc.) and i don't have a spare several grand laying around anywhere, but i asked her what i should do, told her about being afraid to call my surgeon's office because i don't want to be reprimanded for being in pain and all the lousy things this guy has done to me. i asked her what my options were, who i should call. hopefully she gets back to me soon cuz i'm getting dangerously low on pain killers, especially because i have to take double the amount for them to even scratch the surface.

oi, life is lousy.